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I Know It’s Been a Long Time

on October 26, 2017

I kind of think I’m back – actually I’ve tried a couple times over the last nearly two years, but every attempt met with crushing defeat.

Sometimes just making it through another day is a victory, but it feels stupid that you’ve  nothing to share – got up, went to work, took 8 – 10 hours of abuse, tried to close up, cook dinner, drink  myself to sleep.  Not a pretty picture.

And you know what – in all this time some amazing things have happened and I count not rejoice in a single one of them.  Mind you, crap happened to.  But let’s get a little list of “What Happened to Maeveypants Over the Last 18 Months”:

  • Ran off to Las Vegan and got married
  • Angharad FINALLY went back to college (she will graduate in the spring)
  • Hubs broke his ankle STANDING ON THE BACK PORCH – don’t ask!  Took 21 days to get a pass to drive him to his workplace (again, don’t ask!!)
  • Yours truly has developed “issues” with the C5 & C6 vertebrae (what this means is I had a lot of MRIs, and experienced the hell that is dealing with the “pain clinic”
  • One of the MRIs disovered a brain tumor that doesn’t seem to be doing anything, so I’m not supposed to be overly concerned (for real!).
  • Iseult graduated from HS and started college this fall and is dealing with the joys and anguish of her first boyfriend.  This means that I am dealing with said joys and anguish, as well.  But this is OK, because she has other problems which really keep me up at night and I’m just grateful every day that she’s alive.
  • Oh yeah – I quit my job (last day was the 20th) and I’m not handling it particularly well.
  • God and I are in a state of detente at present.  That’s not really the word I want to use, but I can’t come up with another one.  It bothers  me greatly, but I still can’t get myself to Mass.  Or pray.  But sometimes we talk – or rather I whine and complain and rant on and on.

So that’s the quickie roundup.  I really want to start blogging again and I hope I can.

No promises though.




9 responses to “I Know It’s Been a Long Time

  1. Elspeth says:

    Vegas. Sounds like your style.

    I know a bit about spiritual detente.

    Hang in there, friend.

    • Maeve says:

      We took the girls with us – BAD IDEA (LOL)- but even in that tacky little chapel, I looked in his eyes as we said our vows and I knew, beyond any shadow of a doubt, that my heart and soul were committed. He told me later on he was so nervous he could hardly get the words out – not me. I have never been more sure of anything in my life.
      I’ll tell the whole story at some point. Most people reacted with, “you did WHAT???”

  2. Two-Cent Woman says:


    It’s so, so good to hear from you again. I miss your posts. One day at a time, lady. Sometimes that’s all we can do to get through. I will hope along with you that you can blog more often!


  3. Hang in there. I’m glad to hear you are well.

  4. hearthie says:

    (smooshes you in a giant hug) You were missed, m’lady.

    You’ll get out safe on the other side. 🙂

    The new hubs sounds like a great guy.

    • Elspeth says:

      I agree. Every indication (from the bit I have heard) indicates a great man, Maevey.

      You’ll figure out what to do with yourself soon enough. For now, enjoy the time you have to indulge your culinary genius!

  5. Jennifer says:

    I’m glad you’re back. Congratulations!!

  6. fuzziewuzziebear says:

    I have been checking this blog every day since November, hoping for news. I was afraid you had died. How else would I know? In the meanwhile, I have been wrestling with my own demons. Happy to see that you have posted and are still among us.
    While everyone is here, here is the video that caused so much controversy at SSM’s.

  7. Maea says:

    I’m so glad to hear you’re back! I wondered what happened and if maybe you were busy with work. Life’s struggles can be taxing, but glad to hear you are doing okay.

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